The price is nice, but so far not worth the havoc it's wreaking on my body.
After about a week and a half on the new pills my cheeks, chest, and shoulders formed very large, swollen, and extremely painful lumps-- like boils or something, only they never come to a head, they just sit there deforming me.
And another 10 pounds showed up out of nowhere, because that's what I really needed.
I've felt so humiliated. And I know I shouldn't, really, because these are things I have no control over. My family knows it, sort of, and my friends are understanding, but I can't help but see how I look-- especially to strangers, since they have no idea, and it's not like I can sit everyone down and explain why I look like this.
Which is so horribly superficial...and then that's embarrassing...
Speaking of, the bumps are starting to go away, thank goodness, but there are further problems with the new medicine: it's not working.
The endometriosis pain is back full-force, and by my estimation, right now, I have about 20 minutes left of upright time before I have to lay down for a few hours again.
I don't think there's anything I hate more than medicines that take a while to work right. I know the new BCP is doing something to my hormones so I have to give it a chance to balance out, but it's so frustrating to live through its bull waiting for it to work. Like the Nexium, the Ear, Nose, & Throat doctor (Dr. A.) said it would take up to 6 weeks to see results.
6 weeks? 6 weeks. Great. Looking forward to it.
Luckily it's spring break this week, so it's not like I'm missing out on work because I'm sick this time.
Patience...patience...it took 15 years to get this way, it'll probably be another 15 to get back what I've lost.
It's funny, this whole situation is like a huge knot. A hundred threads all balled up, kinked and woven. Everything's so interconnected and layered you can't begin to work on one part before you've unwound the 12 before it.
I just need to be patient, and keep working on it...one day it'll be better.